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Something new is growing inside me this days... I know this journal is not read but anybody but who cares... I just write and/or read time to time, I come here each 1 or 2 months and only come to deviantart to update some wallies on my gallerie or to look for brushes and textures. Maybe many people would think that I take them without credit but, well, I don't know who to tell those amazing an creativity people who create does amazing sets "hey, ya, I'm taking this on my own and I'll credit you for sure", I would, seriously do it, if I know the name of the maker but, sometimes people doesn't put their user names. Another thing is that I don' know how to get to the user gallerie :s soo... I'm just confused and decide to just say, I took this from deviantart and that's all... I try to credit, for sure... but sometimes is so hard to do.

On the other hand, why am I updating my journal, easy, it's coz I've written a poem/song that I think I can share without fear so, I'm posting it here, enjoy!

I thought I could let you down as you did to me yesterday,
I thought I could just stop talking, stop revealing me,
I thought I could trust in you, let you know my feelings,
I thought you were true but now I know I've been a fool.

You fooled me around, you tear me apart,
left my hopes carry me through the wrong way,
left me fly high without safety wings, yeah

Now you're here but then you're there,
you're around me, surrounding me, everywhere,
I feel ashamed, I'm terrified
by the feelings that are growing inside me.

I thought you were smarter, the right guy,
I thought you were everything to me, the right man,
I thought you would set me free but you didn't,
you just left me alone in the dark, full of fear and weakness.

You just run away, far from every safety space,
left my feelings fly by acting like a child,
left me speak my mind and think I was your girl,
and now you, you…

Now you're here but then you're there,
you're around me, surrounding me, everywhere,
I feel ashamed, I'm terrified
by the feelings that are growing inside me, yeah, yeah!

Now, time passes so slowly,
I can hardly breath if I'm lonely,
better die than being without you're spite,
better kill myself than being without you're beautiful disguise.

You're touch freezes me like ice, cuts me as a knife,
a single glance and I'm on my knees, begging you to stay,
please, don't, please just save me, release me,
let me taste you're bitterness one more time,
let me feel the pain in my skin again, drive insane.

Kill me, free me, arrest me,
hold me tight, don't let me scape, please…

And now you're here but then you're there,
you're around me, surrounding me, everywhere,
I feel ashamed, I'm terrified,
by the feelings that are growing inside me.

Now you're here but then you're there,
better die than being without you're spite,
better kill myself than being without you're beautiful disguise,
let me, please, let me taste you're bitterness one more time.

I feel ashamed of my feelings, this embarrasing situation,
oh my, please, someone come and rescue me, I can't hardly breath,
he, oh, he, a single glance and… yeah, I'm on my knees…